Relationships

Is it that hard to maintain a relationship?
Is it that hard to find the one person who can understand and accept you for who you are, without complaining and judging you?
It is that hard to still remain interesting to the other party, even if you two have been together for a long period of time?
Well, I guess it is.
Thats why people say relationships require committment and effort, and I guess it true.
No two people are perfect for each other, both has to make certain sacrifices and compromises for the relationship to last.


And maybe I'm just not good in doing all these.



Or maybe I'm still young, and I've yet to venture out in the world to find that one person.
Maybe someday I'll find one who is perfect for me.
Maybe someday I'll find one who will always find me appealing.
One who completely loves and appreciate me for who I am.
One who I'm willing to make sacrifices and compromises for.
One who I will love for a lifetime.


Just maybe.

First post!

So, I've decided to create this blog cause I wanted to have somewhere I can pour all of my feelings out to.
 I might use this blog for personal use, like a personal diary, or I may let a few people view this blog.

Anyway I've had a lot on my mind these days.
It's been a hectic week for me, going to school then rushing home to do my homework and sleep and basically the cycle repeats.
Sometimes when I get back home I'm just so tired all I want to do is sleep, but I can't afford to.
Mid years is in 7 weeks, A levels is in 7 months.
I haven't started on my revision and sometimes I'm just so lazy to even do my homework.
Sigh I really need to start studying I'm lagging behind so badly.
I guess I complain a lot about the busy life I have, but oh well, I chose this path and I'm going to at least do my best.

At times, I can get really sensitive about what others say about me.
 When others say I'm fat, even when they're just joking, I get hurt, even if I don't show it.
I just laugh it off but deep down it makes me feel more insecure.
Also, I tend to overthink very small and trivial situations for a very long time which makes me worry and become unhappy.
And so when people make remarks about me, I tend to get hurt and then keep it to myself.
I just want to be a happy go lucky girl that doesn't give a damn about anything, but I can't. :(
I just hope that I'll have the determination to not care about what others say me and just be happy, cause I think that's most important to me right now.

Anyway, sob story aside, I'm really excited about Sunday cause Im finally meeting Gelsel, Yamin, Lixuan and Charlotte after such a LONG time of not meeting as five of us.
Really want to know more about how theyve been doing and all. Can't wait.
And also its my popo's birthday on sunday so I'll get to eat nice food I guess? Hahahaha.
Phew I'm just so relieved its finally Friday! Haha.